A real girl would give you all the reasons why NOT to be with her. For instance, she can be a bitch sometimes, she gets easily jealous when she sees other girls talk to you, she’ll get mad at the little things & make it a big deal, she’ll argue with you on & on about how she hates the way she looks & her weight, she has trust issues & tends to assume the worst, she talks & chills with more guys than girls. But, if you can deal with all that, then you deserve her.
Has fights. Has trust. Has faith. Has tears. Has hurt. Has sweet smiles. Has genuine laughter. Has weird, stupid, unnecessary arguments. Has patience. Has communication. Has secrets. Has jealousy. And most importantly, love. This is all just a mess that turns out beautiful & an experience that can never be forgotten.
Pretending I didn’t have a heart is what got it broken.
But I wish you’d understand that I only wanted to fix them, not to repeat them. It took all of this for me to realize all the small things I had with you & I should’ve appreciated them. Should’ve let you know everyday that I did sincerely care. I can’t force you to do anything, but I can still try. As much as I know I should just let things be, I won’t. I can’t. It’ll take some time to heal and rebuild it all, but I’m willing to go for that risk.
I can’t change the fact that you’re capable of changing my mood by a few simple words. You have my emotions at the palm of your hands. The smallest things you say can either make me happy, sad, or everything in between. Sometimes you don’t even notice when I’m slowly suffering because I miss you and other times, you’re there to make me happy. On top of all this, everything’s 10x’s worse because I’m attached. I don’t show it all the time because I’m trying to give you space.
I’m just afraid that if you see me all the time, you’ll get sick of me. If you talk to me all the time, you’ll run out of things to say. If we do the same things all the time, you’ll get bored of us. If I’m too nice to you, you’ll take advantage of me. If I’m too mean to you, you’ll drift away from me. If someone else gets your attention, you’ll ignore me. If you meet somebody new, you’ll leave me.
It’s not about the labels or becoming official. It’s about getting to know someone well enough to develop genuine feelings for them. It’s about being understanding and forgiving when situations are at their worst. It’s about loving someone, not for what they have to offer but who they are. It’s never about blaming your significant other for not treating you like how you want to be treated, it’s about how hard they try to keep you around.